I scroll through my phone and stare at another Christmas party post.
Smiling faces beam back at me as I rock my sleeping babe and wish mine was wedged between them. Praying she won’t wake, I dance to my daughter’s crib and put her down as softly as possible.
Immediately, she cries. Breathing deep, I stand there a moment with a small glimmer of hope that she’ll calm.
This was my life a year ago. It was my first holiday season with a baby girl I desired for years. I remember fighting tears and thinking about the irony of it all. I’d waited months for this time and now all I wanted was sleep. I’d felt her kick in my belly and longed to see her face, and then wondered how such a tiny thing could scream with such force.
Before leaving the hospital, the nurse told us not to bring her into crowds for a month.
Continue over to Abby McDonald’s place and join us for the #RaRaLinkup!