Two nights ago I awoke in the middle of the night with “concerns”.
I got up at 12:05 and sat on the couch in my living room for 2 hours.
- worried about my son and something he said.
- became concerned about a get together with a critical friend.
- felt guilty about doing something I knew I should not have done.
My first instinct when dealing with all this was to develop my own attack plan.
First step: In the morning, I’d tell my husband how to “talk” to my son. I’d also suggest he take him out for a “boy trip”.
Second: I’d think more about the friend and whether to avoid her, confront her, or ignore her.
Third step: I’d just sit there and think more about how to not allow these things to happen. . . (while fearing that they might.)
What are you fretting these days? What wakes you up at night? What is breaking your heart? Calling you to manage it? Convincing you — you will always be a mess-up?
While all the other steps led me to anxiety, worry and more sleepless minutes on the clock, finally I made the right step. I cracked open my bible to Psalm 27.
It jumped of the page:
The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
(God saves. God brings light to situations. God is Rescuer. He will come and make the wrong things right. He is mightier. He is stronger. What am I afraid of?!)
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?
(He puts me in His fortress. No arrow can hit me. As I trust Him, I am safe. Enemies can’t reach me when I am hidden in Christ. I am eternally loved.)
When evil people come to devour me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
(Jesus is Ruler. People are people. He is my defender, keeper and the watcher of my soul. I am safe, in Him. With the armor of faith on, his promises become my shield)
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid.
Even if I am attacked,
I will remain confident. (Psalm 27:1-3 NLT)
(What can touch me when Jesus is for me? Who can come against me, when He is with me? What can take me down when I am confident in His ways and not mine.)