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I made a trip to a new state to investigate a new home to live in. While we were in town, we found the house! I was delighted. Yet, as soon as we got back home the owner called; she changed her mind.

What do we do now? Get a place, without even seeing it?

Thanks to online images, from afar, we found another decent place. Sight-unseen we put in a bid. After some time passed, they called me back, saying, “Sorry, someone else got it before you.”

More time passed. Days were flying off the calendar. My heart was beating faster. Minutes were evaporating. My kids needed to be in school in days. Plus, I have a mega-project needing to be completed, in almost no time. And, we have no home.

I reached out to yet another house. The realtor called back to say, “I think the owner mostly wants to sell the house. You will need to wait and see.”

But, I can’t wait. . . and see. . . 

Have you ever been in a powerless place? One where you don’t know where you’re going or how you’ll get to where you think you should be?

Listen, I understand. I understand what it is not to know the future, not to have all the answers, not to stand on solid ground, not to know how it will all happen. . .

I know these feelings, but I also know my God. My God doesn’t change. Natural circumstances sway and rock, but His nature stays the same. We can’t name our future, but His Name is constant.

Our God is Provider. Faithful. Healer. The God Who Hears. Daddy. Help in a Time of Trouble. Alpha of Everything. Omega to the Groundbreaking Solution that is about to come. The God of all Knowledge of What-to-do. The God Who Sees Every Detail. The Creator of Everything I Need. The Banner over Me, Called Love. The Hope that Delivers Hope. The Way of Life I Desperately Need.

No “bad” circumstance can block the power of all of Him.

Never. Ever. No way. No how.

Today, God is providing for me. He is blessing me. Yes, the house is somewhat not-as-I-thought, but, you know what?

I trust Him. I serve the God who does exceedingly more than I can ask or imagine. If I haven’t seen Him do “it” once, I’ve seen Him do “it” a hundred times. What about you?

So, today, I trust Him to make lemonade out of my little “not-as-expected” lemons in due time. My God is faithful. Radically faithful. And, so is your God.

Be encouraged.

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There is almost nothing worse than being misunderstood.

To bear your heart to someone…to approach things carefully and thoughtfully…to pour out your best…to attempt to do things the right way…and then to be accused of having motives that are entirely different? That hurts.

In the past, when people did this — it infuriated me. They’d say what I did wrong. I’d cross my arms and close my heart. I’d block out what they were saying, thinking, “I know what I did. They’re wrong. I am right.”

Then, after they were done slinging stuff at me, I’d tell them all the reasons they were wrong. I’d make a whole case as to why I had ‘good motives’ in what I did.

Yesterday, a friend, approached me in a similar manner. She guessed the motives of my heart. She was wrong.

But, this time? I just listened to all she had to say. I heard it. I accepted her words. I did not reply with a personal discourse of defense. Silently, I decided, that if Jesus did not reply when face-to-face with accusers, why should I? There is no burden to.

“But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge–to the great amazement of the governor.” (Mt. 27:14)

Instead, I listened. Why? Because sometimes we can be blind to what we think we know about ourselves. Because sometimes, there may be a grain of truth hidden within a sea of false accusations.

I wanted to go home and pray. I wanted to hear God’s heart about it.  My goal is not to prove anything to her. I don’t have to say anything. I stand before God.

In my silence, God fights for me. He fights for you too.

“The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.” (Ex. 14:14 ESV)

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Some of you are worried about what you are going to eat.

How am I going to pay this bill?
. . .put my kids through college?
. . . ever retire?

Others are worried about how God will come through.

What will happen?
How can this possibly be fixed?
There is no way.

In John 4, Jesus told the disciples, “I have food you don’t know about.” (Jo. 4:32)

Friends, God has food you don’t know about.

You don’t have to see the provision today to trust it will come tomorrow. You don’t have to know Sunday’s daily bread because it’s only Saturday. You don’t have to see where, how, when, why and what He’ll do, because: He hasn’t shown it to you, yet.

God has food you don’t know about. Don’t be one who needs to see — to believe.

Then Jesus told him, “You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.” (Jo. 20:29)

Be “blessed” because you didn’t see, yet still believed. Be “that” type. You can always start today.

Jesus was hungry when the disciples told him to eat in John 4. But. . . He had food — they “didn’t know about”. It was called “doing the will of God” (Jo. 4:34). Jesus fasted. Hidden food is often spiritual, not only natural.

The will of God, for you, is that:

• you trust Him
• you love Him
• you surrender
• you allow Him to lead you

He’ll feed you.

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For the longest time, I willed-and-worked to do what God wanted. I told myself, “I need to act better”, “God is not satisfied with me” and “I’ve gotta do more”. I felt shame and embarrassment at mistakes. It was as if other Christians were noticing that I was the one misfit. Each mistake was a crushing blow to my spirit. God’s requirements were like a nebulous ring in the sky; I could never reach high enough.

I couldn’t do enough.

These scriptures wagged at me like a chiding finger:

“If you love me, keep my commands (You don’t do this very well, Kelly, do you?)” (Jo. 14:15)

“By this we can be sure that we have come to know Him: if we keep His commandments (Kelly, how can you really be sure?)” (Jo. 1:3)

You are my friends if you do what I command (He has other friends besides you). (Jo. 15:14)

Am I really God’s friend? Why can’t I just do what He commands?

Maybe you feel this way today? Perhaps, you’ve made a scathing mistake. A horrible decision. You can’t do right. You’ve spoken words you can’t take back. You know you need to be with Jesus and share Jesus more.

Perhaps, it seems like God or people are saying, “You are not good enough.”

One verse set me free. I believe it will release you from all this pressure too. I believe it will relieve you. . . like it did for me. . .

“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.” (Phil. 2:13)

God gives you:

1. The desire to do what pleases Him.
2. The power to do it.

This is freedom!

All my good work is a work of God. All my obedience is sourced from Him. This means I don’t have to hard-drive myself into good-works. I come to Jesus. I love Jesus. I draw near Jesus. I hear Jesus. And, my nearness becomes His outpouring goodness — naturally, seamlessly, and easily.

Everything good from me — to them — is because of Him.

All glory, honor, and praise to the King, not to Kelly Balarie. Working-up good works produces insidious pride. But, letting Him do it through you — and because of Him — creates reliant humility.

If you have the overwhelming desire to love God more, to be near Him more and to do His will more, I would venture to say — that’s God working in you. Do not hate that. Embrace it. He is working in you. He is calling you His own. He is leading you in paths of goodness. He is helping you. He is equipping you.

Draw near and He will draw the best parts out of you so that you may follow His commands like — a friend, like a lover of Jesus and like one He knows.  This is where the joy is.

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For years, I treated my china like an ancient heirloom. I didn’t want to use the plates. They were better preserved in a box than used in a kitchen where they may get scratched, chipped or broken. Until, one day, I decided, what good is a gift if you’re afraid to use it?

Now, they’re on a higher shelf. Less often used, but more easily accessed. Anyway, today, I started packing up the house (yes, we are moving!). And, as I pulled down a stack of Waterford plates from the high shelf, one broke. Bam!

Immediately, I had that sink-down-in-my-chest feeling. Then, my daughter said, “It’s okay, Mommy.” Two-seconds later, my son said, “Yes, mom. It’s just one piece.”

Amen! They were right!

I picked up the pieces and threw them away, with joy.  Why? Because grace gave me peace.

One well-timed word of grace changes everything. It tells someone, “You don’t have to be perfect.” It silences anxiety. It breaks self-reproach. It offers perspective.

How do you extend grace to others?

I am not the world’s best grace-giver. I get really irritated when my kids intentionally do something I told them not to. But, if I’ve done one little thing right it’s to say — when something breaks — “It’s okay, be kind to yourself.”

Some of you need to say that to yourself, “It’s okay. I can be kind to myself.”

When you make a mistake. “It’s okay. I can be kind to myself.”

When you drop the casserole. “It’s okay. I can be kind to myself.”

When you say the words you didn’t intend to say. “It’s okay. I can be kind to myself.”

Let yourself off the hook once in a while. Why? Because Jesus didn’t die to condemn you; He died to save you.

Sure, you can learn along the way from what you do wrong. But, receive as much grace towards yourself as you give to others. This will bless you. It is a blessing well-earned for you by Christ.

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While cleaning the kitchen, I had to stop and acknowledge all the screaming and arguing surrounding me.

“Madison,” I said, “those people on TV sure are screaming loud at each other. They’re so angry!”

My 6-year old daughter looked over at me and said, “I know, Mommy, it’s in the hands of God — but, they’re trying to figure it out.”

It’s like they are trying to take it right out of God’s hands — to handle it with their mind. That’s funny.

But, I wonder, how much are we just like these people — “figuring-out” what God’s already working out? Screaming-it-out, worrying, agonizing, figuring, postulating, regurgitating? Tirelessly and endlessly circling the same block? Grabbing away from God what He’s working on? Worrying rather than trusting His amazing end?

If it is all in God’s hands; let’s leave it there.

“I will lay waste the mountains and hills
and dry up all their vegetation;
I will turn rivers into islands
and dry up the pools.

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them.

But those who trust in idols,
who say to images, ‘You are our gods,’
will be turned back in utter shame.” (Is. 42:15-17)

Our mind can be an idol when it trumps trust in God.

Prayer: Father, we lean on you. We trust you. Even with the things that feel out of control, too scary, too much. . .even with these, we trust you. Help us not to grab out of your hand — through worry, anxiety, manipulation, knowledge or passive-aggressive behaviors — what you are handling. May we bring peace in the darkness and hope in our every day, despite our circumstances. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

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A bit back, on Facebook, my friend posted something like this: “God loves me unconditionally. I am His. He is love. I will always be loved by Him. Even on my worst day, I am loved by Him.”

Then, I saw her picture below the post. I stopped. Her face looked nothing like her; it was altered.  Instead of seeing her normal shaped face, it was longer. Instead of her regular complexion, her face was lightened, substantially. Instead of seeing her eyes, filled with the reflection of Christ’s love, I saw large Barbie-doll-altered eyes that seemed to seek something. . .

Something in me sank.

Everyone was replying that she looked beautiful. But was it her they were affirming, or someone else?

I suppose my issue her is not her, it’s me. I’ve been where she is and done what she’s done. I’ve altered myself to seek approval. Changed my persona. Shown the world what they wanted. I’ve relied on man’s affirmations, not God’s unconditional love. Yet, the funny thing is — I never really accepted people’s comments. Why?

I knew what they were affirming was — fake, altered, forced.

Today, I’m coming to learn, more and more: God loves me for me. Even when my hair is frizzy, when my humidity makes it puff up like a balloon, when my eyes have a pile-up of mascara under them, when I sing off-key or when I fall on my face — God loves me still. . .

I never have to improve or prove myself to Jesus. God always loves and wants me still…

He likely looks at me and thinks, “I love that girl so much. She is so beautiful. Look at how I made her. She is mine. I want her.”

I wonder if He smiles?

In light of God’s acceptance — no upgrades, no make-up, no touch-ups, no filters, no enhancements, no lighting — are vitally needed.  This is powerful. Sure, we may add things, because there is also freedom and fun, but we no longer rely on it as if it is our worth. We return to the love of God; we dwell there.

He loves me. He loves me. He loves me. Eternally. He loves me.

“I praise (God) because (God made me) fearfully and wonderfully; (His) works are wonderful, I know that full well.” (Psalm 139:14)

Prayer: God, I realize some people may hate themselves, their features, their inadequacies, their weakness. Father? I want to praise you for these very things. I love what makes my sisters different, unique and “themselves”.  Even more, I am fully aware that I have a larger-than-normal nose. Today, I join hands with my readers to say, I give thanks to you today for this very nose. It’s how you created me. I thank you that, if I am to look for the good, I suppose. . .  it gives some prominence to my face (I’m laughing). I also thank you that you look upon me and just love me, want me, and accept me. Always. May every sister here see the good in how you created her. May she feel your love, acceptance, and affection today. May she release what she can’t accept, let go of what is burdening her and give thanks for what you created, just right. Thank you that we can all rest in your love. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen.

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Most wisdom says, “Take time and think things through. Be thoughtful about your decision. Take it slow.” Yet, there is one time when you should throw caution to the wind: it’s when you know God is calling you to do something.

The other night my husband and I, sat on our bed. Somewhat unintentionally we entered a difficult situation. The more we talked, the more we knew God was calling us to radically change some things. The more we thought things through the more we realized it would require a complete change of approach. The more we pressed into the details the more we realized that to sit around doing the same thing would be sin.

Grr…I am not sure about all of this God.

“Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it.” (Ja. 4:17)

Jesus didn’t call His disciples casually; He calls them immediately.

“One day as Jesus was walking along the shore of the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers—Simon, also called Peter, and Andrew—throwing a net into the water, for they fished for a living. Jesus called out to them, “Come, follow me, and I will show you how to fish for people!” And they left their nets at once and followed him.

A little farther up the shore he saw two other brothers, James and John, sitting in a boat with their father, Zebedee, repairing their nets. And he called them to come, too.  They immediately followed him, leaving the boat and their father behind.” (Mt. 5:18-22 NLT)

Following Jesus doesn’t mean we stay where we are and cling to stuff. It doesn’t mean we count all the reasons why — we can’t. As difficult as it feels, it means that we drop everything and go where He is going. And, trust me, I know this isn’t always easy.

Where is Jesus calling you to come or go?

To a more unforced rhythm of life? To greater patience? To a job change? To help in a service project you have been putting off? To listen more to your husband? To walk down a new road and find new friends? To reach out to a neighbor? To call that family member? To meet with Jesus more in the morning? To forgive. To let go of your worry about a child?

Frankly, I am going to speak a bit loudly to you today to say. . .

“Follow Him. Do not hold back. If you believe by faith it is Him, act immediately. It will be the best decision of your life. You are a “follower” of Christ, after all. So follow. Sure, there is a time for counselors. Indeed, reach out to them as God calls you to. But, beware of using people as a crutch to stay where you are — when you know God what wants you to do.”

And, friend? I know this may not feel easy, but, may I assure you? God is good. It may take time for you to see it, but you will look back and understand. It may feel like you are losing everything. But, God is good.  It may feel like you are leaving everything behind. But, God is good. Always.

Radical obedience yields radical results. It often is the breakthrough we’ve been searching for: Greater purpose, passion, and peace that kills apathy, boredom, and complacency. This is good. Abundant life is not out of reach.

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Do you know what it is to appear happy on the outside, but to feel crushed on the inside?

For a couple of months, there’s been a deep, deep longing in me. A quiet call to God. A sometimes-scream to God. A desire that I want to be met. A dream I deeply want to happen. Yet, despite my all-out prayers, it felt like God slammed a door in my face say, “No! No! No!” Time passed, and — nothing. Nothing happened. Nothing gave-way. Nada. No way. No how. Dead air.

Many of us have been praying. Some of you have been praying for years for that one thing. Some of you have shed tears and sweat over that person. Some of you have tried to push forward with it anyway. Some of you live in defeat. Doubt. Despair. Rejection because you’re the only one who this is happening to. You now feel alone. Self-reproach creeps up on you.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick…” (Prov. 13:12)

During church the other day, God opened my eyes to something profound. It shifted my heart: Never would I withhold something from my kid with the intention of hurting them. That’s not what good parents do. The only time I withhold something from a kid is to give them something better in the end. I don’t give them sweets all the time, because I want them to have good health. I say they can’t watch TV, because I desire they do homework so they can have opportunities in life. I don’t allow them to get together with that one friend, because I know that friend would lead them down the wrong road. My end-goal is always — their benefit, joy, growth, life, increase, learning…

If I’m a good mom in that regard, how much more does God say no — for our benefit?

It’s as if He says: No, not this person. I have someone better for you. No, not right now. I am going to blow your mind 1 year later because everything will come together in a way you couldn’t have imagined. No, I am still developing the gifting so you can carry out the blessing.

God’s “No!” in the right now is not our defeat but our coming-blessing.

What do we do in the meantime?

We:

ONE.
Pray differently. If the prayer you’ve prayed on repeat is hitting a brick wall, try pivoting 2-steps and praying from a different angle. Example: If you’ve been asking for the other person to change, try asking for you to see them through different eyes.

TWO.
Take some new steps. Rather than trying to knock over this brick wall, try to walk around it. Ask God for different ways he may want you to move. Ask him to show you the actions He wants you to take in the here and now.

THREE.
Learn. Ask God what you need to grasp from this time period. Delays are divine set-ups to learn. If you ask Him, if you seek Him, if you keep knocking — the door will be opened unto you. Do not despise wisdom that can lead you to the back-door that can ultimately take you to a better place than where you were demanding you go.

Do the same thing — get the same result.
Try a new thing — watch God do something new.

“…but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. (Prov. 13:12)

I want to pray that your every longing is fulfilled because I intimately know how hard it is to wait, to wonder, to hope, to wish, to desire and to deeply long to see something change. I feel your pain, the sadness, the isolation. . .

Prayer: God, waiting is tough. It’s rough. It feels horrible sometimes. I am asking from the bottom of my heart, for every reader, that you bust through the roadblocks, issues, and hardships they face. I am asking that you bring swift-rescue. My hope and desire is that you honor all the new steps toward you (which I truly believe you will) and that wonderful stories pile up — of your faithfulness, your glory and your breakthrough-power from this very blog post. I ask for extraordinary moves by you. You are every answer we need. You are all the direction we crave. You are the love we need to give and to receive to conquer all. Come and do what you do in every single house, for every reader, within every family, for every daughter through this post. I ask you to powerfully move in every situation. I ask you to break down walls, both in us and around us. I ask you to come like the wind and to do a new thing in our life. I ask for abundant trees of life to grow and for longings to be fulfilled.  In Jesus’ name. Amen.

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