My head was just as much in a fog as my identical surroundings. I could no longer a foot past my windshield. I could no longer see the water I knew surrounded the bridge. It was gone, swallowed by the wholeness of the sky. Everything about this morning represented my feelings: confused, torn and worn.
Will God break through when I cannot see?
Does He see me when I feel I’m in this place of nothingness?
Does He care about my problems enough to fix them?
Does he run to the rescue of a daughter who feels alone?
Upon arrival, I got out of the car and walked, as I planned to. I wandered the grounds; I hoped to meet Jesus. Will He show up?
A tad discouraged, I kept knocking. I kept asking. God says he answers this type of seeker, that He opens things up for them (Mt. 7:7). We can always try.
Pushing on,
Pressing in,
Placing him on the top of our mind…
We can hope in the fact that Jesus is our hope…
And, with this, I realized something about perseverance, prayer and fog:
- Prayer: Those who desperately press into God’s heart, always find it.
- Perseverance: If we keep running, even when we can’t see, we begin to see by faith. It’s almost like we don’t have to see all the answers. We know a good God does. We know his ways are not like ours. We know, every time, eventually, the fog lifts.
- Fog: It’s not all bad.
If we let God’s love fog our mind, we see what matters. We cloud out worries, heartache and endless thoughts. We recognize the futility of all those matters. We notice His complete wrapping, His unfolding. We see Him. Just us – and Him. There’s no pressure to be elsewhere, for we can’t see it. It doesn’t matter. And, what we see? It’s Him. What matters. And, somehow we know, now, we see just right.We’ve found what we’re searching for.
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I don’t know that it is always fear but so much of my life I seem to be in a fog. I don’t like how I feel about myself or how I feel currently. My focus is so short and I don’t feel any comfort from God, that makes it hard to provide comfort for my children and husband. I’m tired of constant physical pain and the disappointment around this and I desire more peace for our family and I want friends.
Kelly,
I love what you said about the fog. “It’s not all bad.” I am going to change my perspective and look at the fog in a different way. You are so right it does point us to what is true and important.